In the past year my life has changed a lot.
In March, my boyfriend of a little over a year and half and I got engaged.
In June, Alayna and I left our life, family and friends in Louisiana behind and moved back to my hometown here in Pennsylvania.
In November, Mike and I married. Alayna is still talking about it. It was as exciting for her as it was for the two of us.
It has been two months. We're still settling into our home and into our new lives.
It has been great having a teammate to tag team with when my wonderful daughter has a relapse of her terrible two's (though shes pushing 3 1/2 now).
But it is still very much an adjustment. We have to work around each others schedules, each others income (mine of which has not been of much help lately), and each others expectations.
I have been a mother for nearly 3 1/2 years, but I have only been a wife for 2 months. We're still figuring out our roles and what is important to each, and what we both need to swallow our pride and just let it go.
I have spent a lot of time struggling with just what my role is. It's hard to be the homemaker i desire to be with work. And now that we're expecting another child i feel this rush to figure out my place before yet another responibility is added to our lives.
My struggle comes from years of wondering where i fit in and what I'm meant to do, and with every life change i tend to relive these same fears and questions in life. I know it will all come together. I know God is in it all. And I know I'm not the only woman who finds themselves in these struggles.
That is why I have decided to abandone my old blog and start a new one. My personal journal fills up fast but not every adventure needs to be secret, some should be shared, to let others know they're not alone, and so that those who read can offer this insight, advice, and comforting letting me know I am not alone either.
In March, my boyfriend of a little over a year and half and I got engaged.
In June, Alayna and I left our life, family and friends in Louisiana behind and moved back to my hometown here in Pennsylvania.
In November, Mike and I married. Alayna is still talking about it. It was as exciting for her as it was for the two of us.
It has been two months. We're still settling into our home and into our new lives.
It has been great having a teammate to tag team with when my wonderful daughter has a relapse of her terrible two's (though shes pushing 3 1/2 now).
But it is still very much an adjustment. We have to work around each others schedules, each others income (mine of which has not been of much help lately), and each others expectations.
I have been a mother for nearly 3 1/2 years, but I have only been a wife for 2 months. We're still figuring out our roles and what is important to each, and what we both need to swallow our pride and just let it go.
I have spent a lot of time struggling with just what my role is. It's hard to be the homemaker i desire to be with work. And now that we're expecting another child i feel this rush to figure out my place before yet another responibility is added to our lives.
My struggle comes from years of wondering where i fit in and what I'm meant to do, and with every life change i tend to relive these same fears and questions in life. I know it will all come together. I know God is in it all. And I know I'm not the only woman who finds themselves in these struggles.
That is why I have decided to abandone my old blog and start a new one. My personal journal fills up fast but not every adventure needs to be secret, some should be shared, to let others know they're not alone, and so that those who read can offer this insight, advice, and comforting letting me know I am not alone either.
I'm glad to see that you know that God is in control. You might find your "spot" quickly but for most it's a journey. Don't forget to let God into your day daily. I find I can hear God's voice best when I'm not doing the talking. That's not to say that I don't talk to Him. He wants us to. But if we are doing all the talking then He is doing all the listening. He's a gentleman. He won't interrupt us. And I think He has better and more important things to say than I do. Plus, He may not be ready to reveal our direction in life when we think we need to know. Just sit back, wait on Him and enjoy the journey. Let Him do the work. Just do what you know and He'll take care of the rest. And for most of us, what we are suppose to do now isn't what He means for us to be doing later. Our lives are ever changing. When we finish one chapter a new one begins. And just like in a book some chapters are longer then others. So don't grow weary. There's a lesson to be learned in every chapter.
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